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Give up Coffee?

When I was growing up, I thought Lent was just something Roman Catholics did—my friends gave up chocolate, and I judged them for being legalistic. My church was clearly better—perfectly disconnected from the church calendar, our Holy Week was simply two Sunday services. I had no idea what I was missing! In college, a few friends challenged me to try…

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Weep For It

Today, friends, we ponder our death, we ponder our mortality, we ponder our sin. Perhaps some of you want to jump right to forgiveness, thinking that pondering our sin is legalistic, that thinking about death is depressing, that confessing our sin is hardly necessary. I implore you, this morning, to consider that just as Christ was in the tomb for three days…

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Grateful. . .

When I’m depressed, angry, and ready to quit, I get this little red book out. Sometimes I have to get it out every day for months; other times, months pass without needing it. It’s my gratefulness journal. It was inspired by Ann Voskamp’s One Thousand Gifts (here’s her website). I read the book and bought this moleskin journal. My gratefulness…

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Hope is a VERB

Hope is a verb. It’s not something we have. It’s something we do. And sometimes it’s one of the hardest verbs—it ranks right up there with endure, persevere, suffer. In the midst of long singleness, we hope for a partner. . . Faced with infertility, we hope for a baby. . . In sickness, we hope for healing. . . When unemployed, we…

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Jesus, Women, Faith

The Gospels do not depict any faithless women. Think about it for a moment. . . or two. . . Can you think of any? In fact, though the gospels depict Jesus citing several faithless acts of male disciples (think Peter), no specific example exists of faithless women. Certainly, when Jesus addresses all his disciples as having little faith, women…

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Freeze My Eggs Part 2

When it’s hard to get or stay pregnant, everything feels heavy. It’s heavy emotionally, it’s heavy physically—especially after miscarriage, it’s heavy financially if one considers any type of treatment, in all, it’s heavily disappointing. Last week I asked, “Why can I freely prevent conception and yet if I’m infertile only conceive at great personal cost?” Check it out here. This week,…

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Freeze My Eggs

She recommended I freeze my eggs. I was 35, very single, and my gynecologist told me to freeze. I considered it. I’d always wanted a baby, and I didn’t want to miss my chance. I’d also always wanted a husband, and that wasn’t guaranteed. So, I considered freezing. She told me it was only about $6000. *Gulp* I couldn’t afford…

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New Year Hope

2015 was a year of survival for me. When New Year’s rolled around a year ago, I made no resolutions—just hoped to survive the first year of my baby’s life, the transition back to work, the changes in my marriage and family, the freezing cold winter. I was still up several times a night and was dealing with mommy-guilt about…

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My Boy and Jesus

I have a little boy who has glittery eyes and a quick smile. When I carry him in my arms I kiss his soft face over and over, and I love the pudgy feel of his legs as they surround me. His giggle is infectious—I record it and could listen to it all day. He lies on his back, covers…

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Mary, Interrupted

Mary is probably an early teenager, promised to Joseph and awaiting her marriage, when the appearance of an angel interrupts her plans for her life. She is told not to be afraid (words angels always say) and that the Lord is with her (words God says to prophets in the Hebrew Bible (Old Testament)). She’s told she will be pregnant with God’s…

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