DWELL

DWELL.

I’m good at dwelling on negative things. When I want to concentrate, I really can, and I go down a negative spiral and dwell hard at the bottom. It’s not living—it’s dwelling and plumbing the depths of negativity without seeing any “out.” I can dwell quite easily and well there—the path to dwelling in negativity is well-worn in my mind.

But I don’t like it. And it doesn’t help me.

I had a choice yesterday. Somehow, I thought that if I left my hotel at 6am I would be able to make my flight at 6:55.

Clearly, I didn’t make it.

At all.

I left a little after six, and it took me more than 20 minutes to get to the airport.

I’m not gonna lie. Tears of frustration came to my eyes. I wanted to get home to see my little boy. I wanted to teach in the afternoon so I wouldn’t have to do it online, and I wanted to hear the guest speaker I had slated in my evening class.

I was frustrated, angry, and pushing away thoughts that maybe I did something stupid.

My husband told me it was no big deal and these things happen. I chose to believe him.

I could have gone down the negative spiral and given in to my exhaustion, been hard on myself, and dwelt in negativity.

I chose not to. I chose to go back to Atlanta. I chose to enjoy going to Trenton and taking the train to New York.

And in doing so, I got to meet a friend for lunch that I thought I would have missed, meet others to share a taxi on the dark stormy night in Trenton, and be joyful as I returned home to my family, a home-cooked meal, and a happy husband and boy.

I can change my habits and not dwell in negativity.

It’s hard, but I can. I can choose. I am free.

Will you help me like my husband helped me?


Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”

(Ps 91:1-2, NIV)


 

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  1. It is hard when we miscalculate times and agenda’s but it seems like you were redeemed in the process and made it a nice day after all. Good words and examples in your writing.

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